Sunday, 4 October 2015

SHORT REFLECTIVE ACCOUNT OF SIGNIFICANT LIFE EXPERIENCE

Short reflective accounts of significant life experience

My name is Md Nasibuddin khan. I have completed my graduate from University of Delhi and now I am doing bachelor of education from institute of vocational study. I am sharing of my life experience account which is related to my educational life.
I completed my 10th class from Bihar board with seventy-five percentage marks, while result had declare I am so happy with my score also my parents extremely happy they fill too well after my result even in my village it was shocking for everybody but they  happy. Here is one question is rise why my villagers is shocked after hear my result well it’s a highest percentage in tenth class from my village side who permanent live in village and study in village.
Some day after the result I come to Delhi with lots of hope and dreams. I want to become an engineer that time I do not know more about how I can become an engineer but I am ready for every challenges. In Delhi I joined coaching for science and stared reading of science text books, my brother suggest me that you should be well prepare for it because in Delhi mostly school administration and managements ignored to enroll Bihar board student in their school because luck of Bihar education system, gradually admission date came near and I was very excited for its. Finally admission begun then me and my brother went to my nearest school in Sarojini nagar and we demand for science but school principal directly rejected mine demand just see my document and told you are not able to science in this school so you can try to other school. But it was shocking for my dream, I and my brother come back home and plan to next day. We think don’t worry here is lots of school wet hewer we get science. at that night I meet some old student who has got science in this school they say me that last year requirement for science is  seventy to seventy five percentage after listen this I relax and wait for next day with positive think that I have also seventy five percentage so I can get.
But I really say that time of period am most difficult of my life while next day we went to other schools almost every school did not accept for science. I think that” I  have also requirement percentage but in current year merit for science increased special in English so finally I released that everything happened just because of English. I struggle for getting science because of English. In Bihar board English is not compulsory subject it’s an additional subject during that time so I was not more aware about English I just score thirty-four in English which is negative point on my marks sheet. In Delhi schools noticed my English number, while I have release that problem yet I died mentally almost.
Finally I decided that I will not go for more education because I want to only admission in science stream never think about another subject so I did stop every activity which are related to education and sit at home but then I released important of English what is power of English in our education system and also first time fess what is tension? What is stress? I had forgotten my natural smile. Who never face that types of thing and then suddenly rounded by many stress in my teen age life which are not tolerable for me. After one week at night my brother told me that tomorrow  we will go for one more school, someone tell me you should try in these school might be this school offer you for science. Next day when we are going to school” while I continually thinking about my future. Where is going my future still I don’t know. We directly go into the principal office and demanded for science and show my document. They keep my document on hand and check it after this he says me that well you are from Bihar and your English is appearing weak but you will manage for science. Me and brother looked at each other and say in a tone “YES SIR” we will manage, it was another shocking for us but this time. We were happy that finally I got admission in science. I did all formality and I enroll in school. After some day of school one day a classmate inform me that principle sir call you in office it’s urgently, I reply him ok am going. I do not know what happened but a little affair in my mind. I enter in the principle office, sir you call me, yes he say Nasibuddin some wrong issue find in your document. What sir I say. He replies me that your name is not matching school living certificate and board certificate. On board certificate your name is Md Nasibuddin Khan but on school certificate is Nasibuddin khan so you will be correct it from school where you complete you school and also with school stump.  I argue for it sir it’s not a major issue but my argument did not listen. He says me you would be do it’ yet your admission is stopped or invalid so go and do it. After lots of struggle I gated science so never think for losing admission.
On that day I go back bihar, this time of period in bihar very rainfall. I reached at home another day went to in my school for correct my name which are on my certificate and I did. Rain still fall nonstop every where water and water but I say to my family I shall go to Delhi  in any case it essential, my parents allow for this then I pack up and waiting for morning. It was too bad lack of my life while early morning voice came into my hear that flood come, flood come flood come I wake up quickly and say what happened mummy. Flood has come, mummy says.  No! Now am how will go. It’s needed for me but I cannot do this because any direction of my village rivers is situated. Some day later flood gradually decreases but it takes my one week after this I reached in Delhi. I went to school and submitted the certificate they say ok unfortunate also they say you are too late so your seat has been allotted to other student, we have no more seat of science so you would be change your streams otherwise your admission will be canceled. I came back home and told to my brother about this. Everybody upset they affair that again I drop education so they start motivate me for other streams arts and commerce they give me some motivate example. Almost after ten day I accepted for art, in commerce I have no any interest.

My brother told me that you can become IAS; it is top rank post in India as government employer, Government pay them almost fifty thousand per month and do you know, most of the arts student prepare for it because arts is very helpful for IAS syllabus. That time I don’t know any more about IAS but it’s inspiring me a little. After some month in school, I had been little interest in arts and most important thing is that my concentration was to improving English, if I read two hours in one day, one hour on study in English. I never fill well to going school so I always did bunk one or two day in a week. I do not prepare for test or assignment; I live like a lazy boy. My final board exam was near but I was not serious for it. Again my brother trying to push up me for exam. They say me what are you doing? If you are not interested to study mere but you have to be pass your exam. You spend two years for this of your life so why you doing sit just because of science. Science had your past forget it live in present think about future that what do you want? Your future is on your hands, but still I was not serious so I think myself ok I will read for only clear my exam. Just twenty day is left so I study every day. Finally I sit for exam. While I was sit in exam I fill that was seriously write exam that time not anything on my mind that I have science commerce or arts just writing down for good score. It was a positive change in my attitude. Exam over very well then result has declare, again I obtained seventy-five percentage but this time I did well in English, obtain number was seventy-five. I was happy with my result also my brother that is big changes in my educational life. My friends and my relative congratulation I and they told me that now you can get admission in college. It is a pleaser.   

....SIGNIFICANT LIFE EXPERIENCES...

Short reflective accounts of significant life experiences

After completed my tenth class I came to Delhi for next education, I was interested in science but cannot get it lack of some bad luck and poor performance in English. Therefore I have had arts for further education. I come from so backward region there were so different environment from Delhi. Of course my choice was Hindi medium for study but I faced so much problem luck of English knowledge. In Delhi English has mixed in Hindi for communicate; mostly people talk this linguistic system. If I talk about school environment of Delhi, this mix linguistic system had very much emerged in school. That’s why I faced some kind of problem then I realized that it deed not meter that, you are from which state, region, school, streams and whatever. If you want to create good future in city then you would be well in English like as it is important aspect of your life.
Then I take it seriously and had try to manage English for understand and communication. Now I had more focus on improving English, yes it is true that, by some day practice I cannot improve is so I had been practiced regularly. In eleventh class I did score very well if I talk about related to tenth class. This number was so motivating for me in further. Gradually I become better in English. While my twelve class result has out, it was unbelievable for me because of English number on my marks sheet, second highest number was in English. That time I filled so well.

After completed my school, now I had take admission in college but this time my choice was for English medium. I was excited for it that now I will read in fully English medium. While I started my college I seen that there had very different from school education system. College curriculum, method of teaching, relation between student and teachers had different from school. I faced lots of shortage of English vocabulary. In every subject, every pages of book, many words which had unknown foe me but still fight with it. I used dictionary as possible as. I take class test in English medium but it was so experience for me, I faced difficulty speciously in economics and political science. I had increase my practice more and more but I fill that it was not more efficient for exam. First semester exam almost near but till I affirmed. I read and remember but just few minute letters all things go out from my mind. I affair that don’t know what happened in my exam? At last finally I decided that in this exam I will write down in Hindi medium and Further I will manage with English. But this decision take me at back foot, I read in English, attended classes in English. But exam in Hindi. When I reached in final year of graduate then mostly student became aware about their future. Where are they wanted to go? Then start preparing for it. I am also one of them. I am very much interested in IAS but I know that till I am not able for this so I decide that firstly I will choice average level job which easily gated. Then I decided for bank clerk. My aim is that first I become a clerk then after it I will try for IAS. So many problem faced by me some is genuine like family support, economy support, and motivation, but one still with me which in English understandive because when I stared study for competition exam I see that in every exam English has so important subject by which they judge your English knowledge. I know that it is not impossible but it is not easy for me. Again I realize important of English, English is important in every field. So many burden on me what I can do? I face family problem so it was needed for me that I take a job as soon as, I never think about private job, I always dreamed for government job so I want to achieve my dream as soon as. Finally Mine College has end. After end of college one day I  went to at Delhi public library for study, where  I meet a parson who had been preparing for IAS. I asked to him that I have also interest in IAS but I cannot prepare for this. He asked to me why? Then I tell to him about my personal problem and I say firstly I want to achieve lower level job then I am sure I will be preparing for IAS. He was a gentle man he say me I want to suggest something for you if u want. I say” of course, you can. Then he told to me that if you want to a job before so you should go for a teacher job. Teacher job? I asked. Yes if you want to study for IAS in further then teacher job will help u more. I explain you how it is help full for you. If you become a teacher then first your economy problem go out, now you have a job for survive and other thing. So you will fill more comfortable for IAS, well” you would be a teacher and teachers always touch in education and knowledge. It is necessary for teacher so you would be need to clear basic concept of some text books which will help you in IAS because in the is exam two paper judge your basic knowledge up to secondary level. They judge you that understanding power at school. And other benefit of teacher job is that a teacher has more time according to other job so you would have more time for study. Yes you are right I say” teacher job will more helpful for me then I decided to first I became a teacher. Now I need to do b.ed which makes me able for teacher. I contacted with my friend talk about this then he say that if u want to do b.ed then fill the ip b.ed form, today was last date of submission. Therefore I filled form on last date also letter filled Delhi university b.ed form. On ip paper I again face English, the English section was not good but after result declares my name came. I used my minority certificate so easily get college then finally enroll in Ip University for b.ed. But this time I was hundred percent sure that my medium will be English in each and every case, and I did.

JOURNAL,,,,QUESTION ON EDUCATION...............

Question on education, learning and teaching that he /she is facing


I live in batla house, okhla. Batla house situated at bank of Yamuna River. At bank area there lots of empty field is available so people go for morning and evening walk. One day I also went for walking.  I looked that a boy age may be nine or ten years old who is collecting garbage from dirty place. It’s not a major problem in India especially in cities urban areas but I seen different from other story. This boy has put on his school dress during collecting garbage. While I saw him, really speaking my heartbeat increased, I shocked what happened in our country. I went to near to him. I say” Hi! What is your name? My name is Irfan, he replies to me with a quite smile. Well you not go for school today? I asked. He told that, had go. Ok I say, so you not went at your home after school off. He says that” Yes I came directly from school. Then I put a question for his, why you come directly from school?  He told” if I will not collect some garbage then will be beaten by my parents. Why? I asked. He told” don’t know. Then I realized that something have behind it which  he trying to hide with me while I saw interested to know about  his family social and economy status  so I called to him that Irfan you would share about  your family with me. I want know it, don’t fear about that you time will be waste. If you will share about your family than I give you fifty rupees for it which can fulfill of your today desire. I want to give more amounts but I am also a student so I cannot do this. Then he agrees to talk with me about his family social status, economy status and family background.  After it, I put some easy question for him. What is your parents’ profession? Where are you live? You want to going school? And why you collecting garbage with wearing school dress?
He stared telling about his family all aspect. He says that” I belong to a too poor family. We have no any house or land so we live in slum which is situated in you left direction, you can see it from here. We do not take on rent because my father is a labour, and have not particular skill for livelihood. In a weak he sit two or three at home by effected of unemployment and some time lack of good health. Mother is house hold, mostly time she busy in house works. She is facing some major disease but still she has been doing house works as a wife and as mother. Total number of family is six including with my parents. I am elder from to my three brothers and one sister, sister is smaller than all she is seven month old. She is too thin and facing nutrition food that’s why she is victim of some disease and my brother is not capable for works and other thing, all time they live with mother and cry for eating food so after my father the responsibilities come on me. Therefore my parents not want to send me in school. They want to that I would do something for livelihood, I cannot do hard work at that stage of age so he tell me for collecting garbage because it is easy but still I go to school because I want to become a good  man. My parents not happy for this that I go to school because there is two thing behind it first is both are not educated even they have not basic education so do not give more importance to schooling and education and second is that according to them if I will collect garbage whole day then I earn more money for family support. But I want to schooling therefore at morning I go for school then after it I come directly from school for pick up garbage. Up to evening  pick up garbage then go to home, after reach at home complete my school home works then I care to my sister because my mother has busy in cooking food 
Now question on education that is a boy want to acquire knowledge but luck of family support or family bad condition not allow to him for schooling. He has not more freedom and not more time study. Even his parents directly say that you will not go to school. They trite like a labour at childhood stage, not a little boy who is their son. Their acceptation high from him, he would collect garbage whole day and earn more amount. Their acceptations like that he is twenty years old man His parents have no any ambition for their child future. They have only one ambition from him that he earns money as possible as.
Question is that where is problem?  Why his parents not want to send him in school like other parents why his parents expected that he will earn some money at childhood stage. May be some kind of particular problem with them but here primary problem of his family is source of income. His father is labour so they have not sufficient income. That’d why his parents not allow him for schooling. This boy Irfan face poor situation of family but still he have desire to go to school and want to become a good man. Our government is not serious about that type situation, every month every years government has formation some policy for poor but they could not apply it on right way. They just think but nothing does. They say that every child is future of India, but if child live in that situation there he so we can think that where is going future of India. There a child struggle for education. Yes it is right that his family is not supportive because there parent cannot effort to this but also government is not appearing more interest. They have no any useful policy which could help that types of problem.








JOURNAL WRITEING

OBSERVATIONS OF LIFE SITUATIONS THAT EVOKE QUESTIONS AND RESPONSES.

My education has been  start in early childhood because my father was educated and traveled in many city in India so they know important of education and what are the role of education in our life and society. That’s why they send me for education in early childhood. Not remembered correct date that time how was I old? When I had went to for Urdu class in my village. There are we learn Urdu, Hindi and basic concept of English (a b c d…) but it is not like formal education and also unorganized so my father not satisfied with this so he enroll me in a MADRSA. Madrsa is an institute of Islamic education therefore in madrsa mostly education related to spiritual, here child learn about Islamic culture and holly book. Almost one year I went to madrsa and acquire Islamic education.
Next year my father take me to get admission in a school, it was a government school. Destination would four or five km. this school was government school in village so not aware about education, neither parents nor school administration. Mostly child come to school just off for government relief and scholarships. The school infrastructure was so poor luck of budget or corruption. Child takes entry from main gate but they go out from window, it is like a game for student. Teachers not take it seriously they had sleep in class on chair. I also did it but I was interested in school education. Unfortunately I live in a small village there were no awareness about schooling may, Parents not want to send their child in school. They think if child would go to school then he will just lose his time otherwise nothing aspect behind it.
My father observed that my education quality not improved, then again my father changed my school and that time I take admission in a private school in zero standard there were no nursery, KG and UKG, Class start with zero then first standard. This private school made by grass it was hurt; there were five classrooms in a row and a small ground front of school. Here no faculty of drinking water and toilets, for this child had go in open areas behind the school. The number of total student will be hundred and four teachers. Yes if we talk about a village school this is so good. My parents say that I improved my education in this school.  I still remember one of the best episodes of my education life. While I was in zero class and our math teacher gives a task for all student, table one to twenty for remember. I was only one student in class who complete this task in given time. The math teacher very inspired to me then asked why you sitting here? Tomorrow I want to see you in first class because you deserve it. From first to third standard I gated first rank. After completed third class again leave this school and went with my father where my father live. Now  that time I was not comfortable with education because this environment was not suitable for me everything had been change for me, most importantly mother loves, here nobody is who take care to me. All things had been doing myself therefore that was so difficult for me. My father has been busy in him profession. They could not give more time for me, I had lived in a room alone mostly time without any chat. Passing a period of time I went back home in summer holiday. But this time I cannot accept for back again for school, my father force me but I did not accept finally they went. Although my education stopped on present year, but this time of period I enjoyed with my friends, in them many were not go for school. All day we had enjoy some local game, like play card, swimming in river and etc. I had also enjoy with them, all time I was live out at home, come only on lunch time and go back again. Almost three years I have been do this, my interest from education almost gone. Then my father argued with my mother that if he not wants to study more so he should know some technical skill for future but mummy against it, she told to my father that he is child, therefore he would not go for this.
Later while my brother come from to Delhi at home. He observed me that I was out of track from education, He take argument with me as hard as and then order to me that you will be have to complete tenth class in any case so now you should be ready for it otherwise no option for you . Through pressure but again I was ready for schooling.  I take tution for some month for better performance in school test and I sited in school test, result was not so bad they allowed me to admission in seventh class. I was happy after it’s because after third class I had not completed any class and after taking some month of tution classes I could became able for it. Although mine education back on track again and finally I have completed my tenth class with first division. I completed my 10th class from bihar board with seventy-five percentage marks, while result had declare I had so happy with my score also my parents extremely happy they fill too well after my result even in my village it was shocking for everybody but they all were  happy. Here is one question is rise why my villagers is shocked after hear my result and then happy well it’s a highest percentage in tenth class from my village who permanent live in village and study in village.

Now we can analysis this journal how was a child good in education during their childhood stage but then they go out on bad track they had no any interest in education then after it he again back on education field and completed his education up to tenth class. So we can say that it does not matter that if a child good in early then remain it on further. But he/ she want study then he/she can back on education track ever. 

Sunday, 30 August 2015

LIFE EXPRIENCE ACCOUNT

HI!  Myself Md Nasibuddin khan. I have completed my graduate from pgdav College University of Delhi and now I am doing B.ed (bachelor of education) from institute of vocational study.  I am sharing of my life experience account which are related to my personal and educational life.
I completed my 10th class from bihar board with seventy-five percentage marks, while result had declare I am so happy with my score also my parents extremely happy they fill too well after my result even in my village it was shocking for everybody but they  happy. Here is one question is rise why my villagers is shocked after hear my result well it’s a highest percentage in tenth class from my village side who permanent live in village and study in village.
Some day after the result I come to delhi with lots of hope and dreams. I want to become an engineer that time I do not know more about how I can become an engineer but I am ready for every challenges. In delhi I joined coaching for science and stared reading of science text books, my brother suggest me that you should be well prepare for it because in delhi mostly school administration and managements ignored to enroll bihar board student in their school because luck of bihar education system, gradually admission date came near and I was very excited for its. Finaly admission begun then me and my brother went to my nearest school in sarojini nagar and we demand for science but school principal directly rejected mine demand just see my document and told you are not able to science in this school so you can try to other school. But it was shocking for my dream, me and my brother come back home and plan to next day. We think don’t worry here is lots of school wet hewer we get science. at that night I meet some old student who has got science in this school they say me that last year requirement for science is  seventy to seventy five percentage after listen this I relax and wait for next day with positive think that I have also seventy five percentage so I can get.
But I really say that time of period is most difficult of my life while next day we went to another schools almost every school did not accept for science. I think that” I  have also requirement percentage but in current year merit for science increased special in English so finally I released that everything happened just because of English. I struggle for getting science because of English. In Bihar board English is not compulsory subject it’s an additional subject during that time so I was not more aware about English I just score thirty-four in English which is negative point on my marks sheet. In Delhi schools noticed my English number, while I have release that problem yet I died mentally almost.
Finally I decided that I will not go for more education because I want to only admission in science stream never think about another subject so I did stop every activity which are related to education and sit at home but then I released important of English what is power of English in our education system and also first time fess what is tension? What is stress? I had forgotten my natural smile. Who never face that types of thing and then suddenly rounded by many stress in my teen age life which are not tolerable for me. After one week at night my brother told me that tomorrow  we will go for one more school, someone tell me you should try in these school might be this school offer you for science. Next day when we are going to school” while I continually thinking about my future. Where is going my future still I don’t know. We directly go into the principal office and demanded for science and show my document. They keep my document on hand and check it after this he says me that well you are from Bihar and your English is appearing weak but you will manage for science. Me and brother looked at each other and say in a tone “YES SIR” we will manage, it was another shocking for us but this time. We were happy that finally I got admission in science. I did all formality and I enroll in school. After some day of school one day a classmate inform me that principle sir call you in office it’s urgently, I reply him ok am going. I do not know what happened but a little affair in my mind. I enter in the principle office, sir you call me, yes he say Nasibuddin some wrong issue find in your document. What sir I say. He replies me that your name is not matching school living certificate and board certificate. On board certificate your name is Md Nasibuddin Khan but on school certificate is Nasibuddin khan so you will be correct it from school where you complete you school and also with school stump.  I argue for it sir it’s not a major issue but my argument did not listen. He says me you would be do it’ yet your admission is stopped or invalid so go and do it. After lots of struggle I gated science so never think for losing admission.
On that day I go back bihar, this time of period in bihar very rainfall. I reached at home another day went to in my school for correct my name which are on my certificate and I did. Rain still fall nonstop every where water and water but I say to my family I shall go to Delhi  in any case it essential, my parents allow for this then I pack up and waiting for morning. It was too bad lack of my life while early morning voice came into my hear that flood come, flood come flood come I wake up quickly and say what happened mummy. Flood has come, mummy says.  No! Now am how will go. It’s needed for me but I cannot do this because any direction of my village rivers are situated. Some day later flood gradually decreases but it takes my one week after this I reached in delhi. I went to school and submitted the certificate they say ok unfortunate also they say you are too late so your seat has been allotted to other student, we have no more seat of science so you would be change your streams otherwise your admission will be canceled. I came back home and told to my brother about this. Everybody upset they affair that again I drop education so they start motivate me for other streams arts and commerce they give me some motivate example. Almost after ten day I accepted for art, in commerce I have no any interest.

My brother told me that you can become IAS; it is top rank post in India as government employer, Government pay them almost fifty thousand per month and do you know, most of the arts student prepare for it because arts is very helpful for IAS syllabus. That time I don’t know any more about IAS but it’s inspiring me a little. After some month in school, I had been little interest in arts and most important thing is that my concentration was to improving English, if I read two hours in one day, one hour on study in English. I never fill well to going school so I always did bunk one or two day in a week. I do not prepare for test or assignment; I live like a lazy boy. My final board exam was near but I was not serious for it. Again my brother trying to push up me for exam. They say me what are you doing? If you are not interested to study mere but you have to be pass your exam. You spend two years for this of your life so why you doing sit just because of science. Science had your past forget it live in present think about future that what do you want? Your future is on your hands, but still I was not serious so I think myself ok I will read for clear my exam. Just twenty day is left so I study every day. Finally I sit for exam. While I was sit in exam I fill that was seriously write exam that time not anything on my mind that I have science commerce or arts just writing down for good score. It was a positive change in my attitude. Exam over very well then result has declare, again I obtained seventy-five percentage but this time I did well in English, obtain number was seventy-five. I was happy with my result also my brother that is big changes in my educational life. My friends and my relative congrate me and they told me that now you can get admission in college.